Happy birthday, Jennifer Chen

Always there, always caring, always making me glad you're my sister.

Today was my first time baking...ever. When she realized I made them, she started cying. She means the world to me and I would've baked a long time ago if I knew they would make her this happy lol.

This is love.

nothing short of amazing

“I lost my tour, I lost my clothing line, my mother passed… Even this film was shot down, but we’re rockstars — f–k your opinion. My swag is so one hundred million trillion.” - Kanye

"Do you know what I hate most about your world?
Anything that is different, you try to change."

Self-indulges

I need to kick myself for not following through with my personal oath to withdraw myself from living paycheck to paycheck. But my self-indulgence seems to find a way to justify my spending habits in a beat of a pulse. You see, I'm still in this adjustment phase in my new life of 'delusions of grandeur' and I am way overdue for a re-evaluation. I have this tendency of becoming completely caught up with wanting things and chasing things until I need to remind myself not to let it consume me.

Clothes do not make the woman, even though they do make her look good.

fairytale dreaming

"If you can't see beyond the horizons, close your eyes."

Ladies,

you're worth more. Don't let him tell you any different.

Sleepless nights

I have an early-morning class and a quiz in a few hours but for some reason, I am getting urges to watch a classic Audrey Hepburn film.

Watching Breakfast at Tiffany's until I fall asleep...

Day 15 — The person you miss the most.

Janet Khuu,
We've been friends for a long time coming now. I believe it's been 8 or 9 years, at most. It's funny to think that we were once wacky, angry pre-teens raging with hormones. And how in some ways, we still haven't changed. We've had our ups and downs. We've seen each other at our best and we've seen each other at our worst. Looking back, I can see how much we have both transformed and how much our friendship is still progressing. Recently, you went on Taiwan for vacation. I don't know why but I've been thinking a lot about you and just friendships in general. I called your phone on numerous occasions, hoping you would pick up so I could tell you how much I miss you and complain about all the things going on in my life right now. Of course i knew that all these calls would go straight to voicemail but you still have no idea how disappointed I was every time it did. And yes, sometimes I can be really blind. It took me your going away for a month to realize how you are my truest friend, how friendships like ours are so rare, and how glad I am that you are in my life. You are so true, loyal, and good to me. I really am lucky to have you as my friend. So many people go through life without finding that one person who understands them, but I have that in you. You have definitely impacted my life in a dramatic way so with that said...I really fucking miss you. And I can't wait, can't wait, can't wait for you to come back home to Boston.

Morning Log

Mood: It's 6:48 Am and I'm feeling way too inspired & awake

Morning Read: Currently reading "Twelfth Night" by Shakespeare for class

Quote of the day:
"Everyday should be a new start. Every time the sun rises, it should erase all the BS you went through yesterday. Ain’t no point in trippin about what you went through in the past cause you can’t change it. So you might as well love what you got & appreciate the moment that you're in. Cause you might not get another one. Pay attention." -Murs & 9th

5 things I'm excited about at the moment:
(1) getting my paycheck on Thursday.
(2) wearing my new oxfords.
(3) folding my freshly clean laundry.
(4) Vado's Slime Flu album is dropping soon!
(5) getting all my work done. It's a wonderful feeling.

sound of the day: feelin' a bit soulful today and loving me some Musiq Soulchild =)

"See I've been watching you for a while and I just gotta let you know that I'm really feeling your style. Cause I have to know your name and leave you with my number and I hope that you would call me someday. If you want you can give me yours too and if you don't I ain't mad atcha. We can still be cool."

quote of the day

"they say that goodness in life belongs to those who believe. so, i believe."

Mos Def

Favorite couple: Kanye & Amber Rose.

f*cking ridiculous

"Hammer went broke so you know I’m more focused
I lost 30 mill, so I spent another 30
cause unlike Hammer, 30 million can’t hurt me
fucking insane
what the fuck am I saying?"

If a man wants you.

"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat ON you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always knows where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them."

-Unknown

Livin' pretty

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from.

TMak,
Some time ago, if anyone asked me who I considered my best friend, I would say your name first without even a hesitation or blink of an eye. You were once the only person I trusted and the person who knew me better than I knew myself. I had two best friends and then I went from having two to losing the most important part of me. We went from being the best of friends to strangers. Now, we don’t even talk anymore. And I ponder from time to time about when, why, how, and where did we go wrong? It was hard to stay in touch after high school because of college, distance, and simply the fact that we were just busy. Yeah, time and distance separated us but everything just went downhill from there. You went from being the person I knew best to being someone I don’t even know at all. I feel like things could’ve been different. I don't know how you feel about it or if you blame me, but I don't think it's completely my fault. Honestly, it goes both ways because you could've tried harder to reach out to me too. I feel like we just kind of gave up. Yeah, friendships change and sometimes friends just drift apart, but it was different for us. You were like a sister to me and I know that for me, there are some things I would have done differently to have you back in my life. Who knows what will happen in the future or when the next time we'll talk again will be. I still love you to death and wish you nothing but the best.