Quote of the Day

“My mother once told me that if you have a choice between being respected and being loved, always choose being respected. Because if someone respects you, love may come. But if they love you without respect, it will go.”
Governor Chris Christie on Oprah’s Next Chapter

When does it end?

Lately, I’ve been feeling like I don’t know where we stand. You ask yourself every question you can think of, what, why, how come, and then your anger turns to sadness. When I think about our relationship, nothing comes out but tears. I feel hopeless. I feel frustrated. I feel hurt. Relationships are not supposed to be this painful so I don’t know why it feels like my heart is breaking. I’ve tried and tried again to see it as just bumps along the road, but it’s not that simple. Relationships usually don’t last not because things changed, but because things don’t change; they stay the same. I don’t know if I want to hold on and do this anymore. I’m tired of crying over and over again; hoping that just maybe, tomorrow things will be a little different. That you’ll hurt me a little less today than you did yesterday. Tired of all the fussing and pain we cause each other. Words that may seem harmless, but pierces our feelings like a fresh wound to the heart. Tired of the stubbornness and pride we both seem too scared to let go of. It’s not that I am giving up on us. I’m just so tired of fighting. Tired of trying and ending up with the same results…every…single…time.

The affection, sweetness, and the small things I used to love feel like a blur. They no longer exist. Instead, it has been replaced by tears of sorrow, regret, and resentment. I don’t want to stand here, hanging on, when the very thing I held is disappearing more and more with each passing day.

Dalai Lama's 18 Rules of Living

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

Blessed

It’s been a long week so overall, I’m starting to experience some stress. I feel overwhelmed, but not in a bad way. I’ve been inspired, to say the least. Lately, I’ve been wondering what is important to me and who matters most in my life. Just this past week, I’ve taken into account some of the most meaningful lessons. What it means to be a loyal friend, a good daughter, and the importance to surround myself with the people I love most. I have the most amazing family. They support me in everything I do and it doesn’t hurt that I also have a best friend who is down for me in every way possible. I can truly say, I lead a blessed life.

LOVE

I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage, or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.

anais nin

Today

“I hate you, you ain’t shit but I love you. Don’t nobody else make me mad as you. But when we makin’ up, i’m glad it’s you."